to see each other one more time

My carry-on luggage this time consists of pillows and medicines. And a letter from my oncologist, confirming that I need the morphine for own use.

I have traveled to Brazil, together with my two beloved daughters.

At 10 in the morning, the day after chemo- and immune therapy treatment, we left Hedalen (Norway). I will have a break from the chemo to do this trip; traveling in the 3 weeks gap between third and fourth dose of immune therapy. Already the day after I come back to Norway, I will be back on with both chemo- and immune therapy treatments.

When planning the trip, I booked for mobility assistance in the airports.

In Oslo and Frankfurt, that worked so-so. In Oslo, my daughter ended up taking care of it. She is an excellent wheelchair driver, so that was a delight.

In Frankfurt we relied on the service from the airlines…

After quite some mess, waiting and lousy communication, we finally reached the gate for our flight to São Paulo at the last minute before it closed.

To be carried around like that; be brought into different kinds of lifts to not have to walk the stairs into the airplanes – or to be pushed by strangers up steep ramps in a wheelchair – not always understanding where we are going – was a new adventure, and an exercise in trust 😆

I see that accepting help is one thing. To accept being helpless, is another thing. And I am aware that I am just having the first tastes of the moments when I am in absolute need for that help; when I cannot do without it. .

I drank half a beer, and ate the dinner that was served on the plane, before I took one pill of fast-acting morphine, lay down with my head in the lap of one of my daughters, and with the feet in the lap of the other.

I slept for 8-9 hours of the 12 hour flight.

No watching movies and drinking wine for me this time. Even from the very beginning of the journey, when we were in the car on the way to the airport in Norway, I used every opportunity to lie down, or to sit in silence with blindfolds and headphones, to save my energy. Hoping it would last all the way.

As soon as we came out of the plane in São Paulo, a sweet woman received me, took me in a wheelchair, and brought all 3 of us, so lightly and easy-flowing, passing all lines and helping us through passport control, luggage pick-up -and delivery – and toll. It was such a contrast to our experience in Germany.

She did not speak English, and none of us speak Portuguese. Still, the communication went so much easier than with the staff in Frankfurt 😆

Guarulhos airport in São Paulo can be a hell of long queues some times, and later I heard that the day before we arrived, it had been full chaos there.

We were lucky; Everything went effortless. Before we knew it, we were sitting on board on the plane to Florianopolis.

From Floripa, the journey went by car, and a bit more than 30 hours after we left Hedalen, we reached our destination. I was tired, but not so much more tired than I always am after a long journey.

It is almost unbelievable; One week earlier I got a high fewer and were hospitalized the day after chemo therapy. The week after, I go on a 30 hours journey the day after treatment – and, with the help of several angels (and some morphine) along the way, it all went surprisingly smooth.

In Norway there is autumn now. In Brazil its spring. The body is grateful to be here; warmer climate – the nature so healing and nourishing. The birdsong full of joy – and contagious like the laughter of a free human being.

The gratitude to see the Master

one

more

time.

My god… The gratitude to see the Master… the Beloved Sangha… And sitting together, in the Beloved’s Garden and in the White Lotus Temple…

one more time

Thank you ❤️


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12 responses to “to see each other one more time”

  1. Thank You, Beloved Savini❤️❤️for your sharing. One more time🙏🙏for your Strength and Softness, helplessness and your caring Heart ❤️🤗🤗Love and Gratitude

  2. ❤️

  3. Thank you beloved for one more sharing ❤️🙏! I was so happy to see you there ❤️! Love you!

  4. So nice to meet you here in Brazil. So brave you are! ❤❤

  5. Prem Madhu Roozen Avatar
    Prem Madhu Roozen

    Oh beloved, so beloved.
    Reading about this journey of yours, I cannot help but have to laugh and cry.
    A testimony of a woman being Mad of Love, in Love, being Love herself.
    Namaste, beloved Sisterji. Namaste.

  6. Beloved Savini ❤️❤️❤️
    I look forward to see you in the garden of the beloved.
    Thank you, thank you for sharing.

    Mumina

  7. I got very touched, with tears and goosebumps as I read your “one, more, time!”
    It is really such a gift to be alive one more day, what to say about sharing a day with the sangha and Babaji!
    Thank you Beloved for your words and for your beautiful presence among us!
    May love guide our way, always! 💜🙏

  8. Geuess my heart ♥️ is also longing for the white lotus temple and the sangha. It came some tears.
    Thank you so much Savini for your writing.
    Mitesh 😊🙏♥️

  9. Prem Ritu Avatar
    Prem Ritu

    Dear Savini,
    You are wonderful, the sweetness and love you have are immense, everything about you is wonderful.
    With your strength you transmit so much energy to me and this helps me continue my long journey.
    I am with you in all your battles and in everything you are going through. I am close to you with my heart deeply and my thoughts are there with you.
    I love you so much.
    Prem Ritu

  10. Lovely Savini,

    I woke up early this morning and immediately meet your posts. Your presence in Garden and in the Temple always brings me such sweetness. I love when this space opens up.

    During the last sitting in Brazil, I had my eyes closed, and when I opened them for a moment, I saw you arrive and sit. That moment filled me with a deep, devotional love for existence, and tears welled up.

    From the heart, thank you

  11. Beloved sister, I just got a wave, deep from the heart, love and gratitude by reading your words and reminding how happy and touched I got when I saw the three of you arriving here ♥️♥️♥️
    It was really a bless that you came! Very brave, but I totally understand the courage of your heart to be one more time in our Beloved’s presence 🙏🏽💕

  12. Thank you beloved Savini,
    one more time… tears of Love and Gratitude ♥️

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